Rachel's Digital Journal

Why is depression so normalized?

Posted November 25 2025

I'm currently in my first year at a university I thought was my top choice. It's been hard to admit to myself but I am genuinely having the worst time of my life. To go through a day feels like I'm lifting weights. I don't see why I try anymore because everything is just too hard with no good results, really. I have nothing good coming my way. I've decided to transfer, because obviously a school shouldn't make you feel this way. However I recognize that it isn't just where I am, and that it is definitely because I have clinical depression. I know. "No shit it's that. What else would it be?"

The thing about depression is that you'd do anything to not have it. I'm aware that's obvious. It's just that everyone who doesn't have it seems to want to, and everyone who has it doesn't. Today I decided that things have been too bleak and I should finally pick up my prescription. On my way to and from the pharmacy I passed by a couple people, who I guess are my friends, but not really. As I walk by, visibly low, one of them goes "she's sooo me right now."

How could she say that? I mean, this girl calls us friends, but never in our entire time here has she ever asked me about my life. If she did, she might end up realising she isn't in fact "soooo me," because "me" has a chemical imbalance, not a cute and quirky personality trait. I'm not just "sooo done with school," I genuinely don't see the point in living anymore.

This isn't a cry for help. It's more of a post saying to anyone reading it, that depression isn't a joke. It is excrutiating to live with. The memeification and relatability of it that has developed with the rise of the internet has only made it more taboo; depression is only cool when it's funny, not when you genuinely can't take a shower or speak to people. I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy. So check up on your friends, and remember that depression is a real human experience that should be approached with empathy and respect. Till next time :)